Love Is The Most Powerful Light: The most important to me, You ♥

"There is a limit to the love? A limit to the things that people can give for love?" That was my thought for a time.

I just wanted she was happy, to protect her dreams, but...I felt that the time could be with her reduced a little, it hurts, I don't understand well but, it hurts so much, I can't find the answer, I can't find a way to forget that feeling, I love her, so I'll endure the pain and keep it deep in my heart.

I can't interfere with her interests and likes, with her dreams. Really, I can't understand my own heart, is strange, I wonder, "Who am I?", "Can I stay by her side?", "I'm not a bother to her for my personality, or for my sorrow about her actions?"

Even so, I want to protect her dreams, I want to see her smile, I want to listen a sincere "I love you"...

She looks so happy, but I'm jealous, I want her to be happy just for me, but I can't do anything, just stand even more. The world can't be like I wish, that's "Reality", everyone knows that, but I can't stop my thoughts, I can't stop the pain in my hurt, why? Am I a monster? My love is a lie? That's not true, I love her more than anything, more than anyone, so that, why I feel like this?

I told her about my feelings, I have fear, a very big fear, I'm confused about this, I don't know what will happen if she answer me something different to my opinion, I don't want to hurt her, and is selfish, but I don't wanted to be hurt too..

And she responded exactly as I feared, She don't want to leave me go, but while, she don't want to leave her dreams aside, I don't want her to leave her dreams! Are my dreams too! I just want to stop my pain, I thought in that moment she would break the relationship, but she just said "I am confused, but I know I still love you infinitely"

In that moment I noticed, I'm a monster, she was always an angel, and, If I'm not the destinated person for her? No, no, I can't think that, our love is very strong, nothing can't break it.

I can't stand more this feeling, I want to release it! And that night I...

Me in her dream

That night she had a dream, it was a very sad dream, I cried when she told me, in her dream I decided to go away and make her happy with her dreams.

I won't do anything like that, I'll stay with her forever, no matter what! Really..I had the same dream, but in mine, she was who gone away, so that, I understand what she's feeling now.

I told her "Don't worry, I'm here for you, that will be forever, I need you, I can't stay without you. You are my life, you are my everything, you are my world, even if I felt very sad, that's no reason for I leaving you behind, in sometimes I have a lot of mistakes, I'm not perfect, but I won´t give up to be a better boyfriend, I want to respect your dreams, I want to learn a little of it, I want to share everything with you, my life hasn't reason if I'm not with you, hold me tight! And don't go away from me!"

-I...I love you so much! But I don't want to see you cry, I don't want to see you sad! I want you to smile, sometimes I think I don't try hard enough to demonstrate you my love, sometimes I think I'm bother to you, you can get bored for me in any time, I don't wish that!

-Just smile! Your smile is enough for I smile too, your happiness is my happiness, I don't want to see you cry too, I'm scared because I don't want you to get angry with me, to stay alone again...

That dark place, a place where I was so alone, I cried everyday in that place, you come to me, you was my hope, you illuminated the whole darke place, and then you made me to fall in love for you, with your magic...

I just wanted to be more time with you! I just get hurt because I don't want to stay away from you!

- ..... Calm down...I'm here for you too, you don't need to cry, every time when you cry, I will kiss you, I love you, remember that, nothing else is more important to me than you, I want you to smile, but, if you want to release all your pain, you can do it here, with me, right now, I will hug you with all my love, and then I will make you so happy, infinitely happy, I have mistakes too, you are perfect for me, but I'm perfect to you, we are not different, and our love is eternal.